It feels like it’s been a while since I’ve chatted with you. I don’t like the word cancer. It’s got baggage. From this point on, I’m going to call it “ my messenger”. That feels more on point to me.
I’ve been working on healing on many levels ,… physically, emotionally and spiritually. And one thing I realized about myself lately is that I sometimes don’t express or release emotions because I spirtualize them instead of allowing them to just come up and out. “Stuff” has definitely come up lately…more than anything a feeling of being alone. It’s an old feeling. So instead of busting out my inner guru and talking that emotion back to enlightenment, I’ve been mothering myself, gently massaging the body and speaking to it sweetly, sitting with the feeling of aloneness and coming up with ways to heal it like a mother does a broken bone.
Yes, we can transcend the “I” and the issues dissolve, but we also have to work with these patterns of energy that are wounded and need nurturing and mothering more than teaching.
I journaled “the deepest wound” of my mother and I being separated at a young age. It was powerful because the symbols and imagery came naturally almost as if somebody else was painting. Every part of it had meaning and it just began with the intention to release the wound onto the page and leave it there. This is a beautiful exercise if you can create some space to do it. You could collage it or even write a poem about it. Once you put the wound down, sit with it a few days, see it and love it.. Ask it how you can nurture it. Then allow healing imagery to come into the text or the painting. And let it speak to you.
My sister sent me this card with these paper lanterns on it that I fell in love with. The lanterns found their way onto the page as did the wheels carrying me out of the wound and to a new phase. The lanterns were symbols to me of bringing light to the wound. Very naturally, it was like the painting was telling me what was next.
The next morning, the paper lanterns were still talking to me. I’ve been wanting to create a business that helps people connect with their light and travel past blockages spiritually and creatively. All of a sudden, I realized the paper lanterns weren’t just for me. They were a symbol for others as well. The idea dropped in to name the business “The Paper Lantern Studio….Illuminating Art & Soul”.
I’m still not sure on the subtitle…but the general idea is there...it could also be “The Paper Lantern Studio …Shining Light on Art & Soul. Which one do you like better? Let me know if you have any inspirations for subtitles. Or suggestions.
And if you create your “wound” piece, I’d love to see it if you feel comfortable and hear how the experience was for you. Have a beautiful week....much love.